I didn’t entitle my last update, an update, but instead entitled it “83 More Miles With Jesus”. In that posting, I discussed a storm of loneliness and frustration. The storm as died down some, but the emotional wind sometimes plays havoc with me.
I’m adjusting to the “New Normal”, which is living with loss. “New” does not mean better, but it is different. The pain is not as sharp when you desire to be held or to hold. I could only assume it a few steps above Continue reading
It started this way, with a text conversation. Their statement was, “And then there is the aspect of YOU finding out who you are.” My response was, “Is that possible? For a simple guy, I think I may be complex!!”
If you Google “Can A Man Know Himself?” you would find quotes and statements from Socrates to Buddha to Nietzsche to almost anyone else wishing to express an opinion. Here is mine.
Having just turned sixty-five years old, I think Continue reading
On Tuesday, my co-worker and I needed to attend a mid-morning meeting at a job site in far western Oklahoma. We had our meeting and started back to Oklahoma City. We decided to stop for lunch in Weatherford. Weatherford is a nice town of just under 12,000 people about midway between the meeting and OKC. We were not familiar with restaurants in town, but we knew we didn’t want to do a fast food franchise.
So, as we were driving down Main Street, we came to a restaurant that looked like it had been built in the sixties. It had a few cars, so we passed it by (one of my guidelines is if there are no cars at a restaurant Continue reading
I have a greater appreciation for those whose homes have been lost or destroyed due to fire or natural disasters. Some homes have had nothing left but the foundation. Others have had the roof removed or a portion of the framing left standing. I’m sure there must have been times when the task seems too great, too much to overcome, too discouraging, and yet deep within them, there is a wish to get back to “normal”.
On May 20, 2013, an EF-5 tornado crossed Moore, OK and S. Oklahoma City resulting in 24 lives lost, many left injured and multiple businesses, schools, and homes were completely destroyed or heavily damaged. It was a horrible event that caused grief and sorrow. Lives were scarred and changed that day. Continue reading
Almost a year ago, I was writing about the early years of Terrie’s and my marriage (The Early Years Part 3). I had described the advances made in my career and how Terrie’s art business began to grow. I wrote about not having children and how people perceived us as “odd” or “not normal”. I could agree with the “not normal” because most married people have children, but there is a percentage of married people that God chose not to bless with children. That is His business and unless He does it, it doesn’t happen.
While we had troubles getting along, we continued with our unstable marriage, not knowing how Continue reading
The sign says “Next Service 83 Miles”. That’s a long way to walk. I’ve come a long way, but I know I have a long way to go. I think most of my days are good, but there are some days that are very hard for me to endure.
I have completed the first cycle of “GriefShare” sessions. The program was very helpful to me and showed me ways to cope with my grief. But there is still some healing that must occur before the Lord shows me the next phase of my life. The program says that next phase is called Continue reading
Today, it is certain that in the United States of America, we live in a divided country. Conservatives verses Liberals; Blacks verses Whites; Straights verses Gays–however you may want to divide it or whichever one you may put first , we are a divided nation.
There has always been divisions and frictions; you get that when you live in the same space with someone else, as in the family household. But in the family household you are to make allowance for someone else. You learned to adjust and to tolerate one another. I don’t see that very much anymore in our society. The Bible Continue reading
I was in a conversation with a friend and we were discussing watching a bird in a bird house and the pleasure that they received by watching this simple event.
It reminded me the simple things in life have often given me pleasure as well and I began to think of those things. Here are a few of Continue reading
As I begin to write, I am listening to Andrea Bocelli singing on my internet radio. He is one of many reminders of the things Terrie enjoyed. Thoughts of her crowd my mind,
especially on Monday’s and on the 23rd of the month, the day and date of her death. Those thoughts are less painful now. Most of the time, I can smile without crying, but there are those times, I smile with tears in my eyes.
I said I would give a monthly update for the first year of grieving, in order to help those who have not experienced the death of someone close to them, a spouse or parent or child. This is the seventh month and it is yet different than the sixth month. Continue reading
I am blessed to have been born and raised in America. I am blessed to have traveled across this land and to have seen mountains, deserts, rolling plains, delta farmland, and even swamps. I have seen the busy big cities and the small rural towns with their good days behind them. I have seen the wealthy and the poor; the powerful and regular working guy. I have seen the old and the young; those educated and those without schooling. I have seen those with a dream and those who have lost their dream. I have seen and listened to the “red and yellow, black and white” and yes, I think they are all precious Continue reading