God is good to give you a detour, occasionally, on the “highway of grief”, especially after a rough and bumpy section of highway. I wrote about that stretch of highway in my post Update 2.21.16.
I was angry about being alone and empty and I didn’t want to be that way. My desire was to be used by God, but I was afraid I wouldn’t be in that condition. I said the fight was out of me and I gave up. I surrendered my will to His will. Continue reading
I am both embarrassed and ashamed of where I am now. I have entered a time of anger. I have become irritable and testy with people whom I admire and respect. They have done nothing to cause my irritability, but nevertheless, they received it. Fortunately, the Holy Spirit began to work on me and I apologized, recognizing I was Continue reading
We moved around a lot when I was a kid. Because of that, it was hard to make new friends or maintain any old friends. I have only had a few “best friends” in my life. As the old saying goes, “I could count them on one hand.”
So when I began dating Terrie, she quickly became my best friend. For a long time, she was my only friend. Not only did I fall in love with her, but I enjoyed her as a person. She made me feel comfortable and at peace. Complete. Continue reading
I have been listening to all of the Valentine’s Day advertisements on the radio about e
xpressing your love for “that special someone”, as they refer them in the ad’s.
Naturally, I first think of my love and not having her with me. What fun we had together! I loved to make her laugh, Continue reading
Yesterday was a very, very hard day! It started with a sinus pressure headache that made me irritable. By lunch time things had leveled out and everything seemed to be alright.
After lunch, as I was working, I began thinking of something my hair stylist said on Saturday, when I stopped in to get a haircut. She greeted me with “Hey, baby!” I smiled because no one has called me Continue reading
I have been told that I have the tenacity of a bulldog that I am stubborn, determined, focused, and hard headed. By the way, these adjectives are listed for the English Bulldog breed characteristics. I admit that I am all of these.
I had an employer who said to me, “Elkins, I bet if you lost both of your legs in the middle of a forest, you would try to crawl out. Wouldn’t you?” I said, “Yes, sir. I would certainly try too.” I don’t give up on things easily.
I think I’m going to legally change my name from Bruce Stephen Elkins to “Baby Steps” Elkins. I’m trying hard to be patient and in that, to wait upon the Lord and do what He wants me to, when He wants me to do it. Like babies learning to walk, sometimes they take a step and fall.
This last week, I asked the Lord about something and did not get an answer. I waited and still no answer. I took it to mean, step out Continue reading