God is good to give you a detour, occasionally, on the “highway of grief”, especially after a rough and bumpy section of highway. I wrote about that stretch of highway in my post Update 2.21.16.
I was angry about being alone and empty and I didn’t want to be that way. My desire was to be used by God, but I was afraid I wouldn’t be in that condition. I said the fight was out of me and I gave up. I surrendered my will to His will.
So what was the result of surrendering to my creator, the one who knows me as no one else can know me? He gave me rest. The last week has been the best since Terrie passed away. I am at peace and at rest. I testified to my church family that I felt like I had had a spiritual massage. The tension had been removed.
I have changed my routine some. I have committed my forty-five minute drive to work to a time of prayer. I talk with the Lord about myself, about my family, my co-workers, and my church family and I thank Him for what He has done for me. It helps me to stay focused on the important things in life – the lives of people and their struggles and their walk with the Lord. Perhaps the Lord would use me to encourage them by something I have gone through or by something I have written about. Oh, I hope that would happen.
An oasis is just a place to catch your breath or to allow your body, or mind, or soul to heal, it is not a place to dwell. It is interesting to me that the children of Israel stopped at the oasis of Elim (Exodus 15:27), which had twelve springs of water and seventy palm trees in the midst of the wilderness of Sin (not the same as sinfulness, but like Sinai), but they did not stay there. Why wouldn’t they stay at a place in the desert which had water and shade? It wasn’t their destination; God said they were headed to the land of Cannan, not the oasis of Elim.
I have more miles to go and I have not learned all that I need to learn yet. I’m sure there will be other troubling miles ahead, but as I turn back to the main highway, I do so with optimism and renewed hope. I can only believe the Lord knows where the next oasis is located and He knows when I need to get there.
Do you remember what Jesus said to folks like you and me?
“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 NASB