A New Discovery?

steve_200I have been thinking of a statement I made in yesterday’s post Update 09.23.16.   I wrote, “…my new life, my still undefined new identity.”  I keep asking myself, “Are you really undefined?”  And I answered with “NO! I’m not undefined.”

I have written about who I thought I am (Can A Man Know Himself?) and I think that was fairly accurate, but since Terrie died, the phrase “new identity” has been used in several  discussions of grief recovery.  Many identified me in association with Terrie.  WE were identified as”Steve and Terrie” or “Terrie and Steve”.

With half of that Continue reading

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Update 09.23.16

news_headline_300 TEN MONTHS

I’m not sure how I feel today.  I’m not sure what to anticipate. I see myself in an open, unfamiliar field and not sure of where the path leads. I know I must keep walking, that this is not the place or the time to stop.

My mind and my heart are in conflict about how I am with my new life, my still undefined new identity.  I seem to be adjusting to living alone.  I have times of being okay with it and other times it drives me crazy.  I can smile at times, but I don’t enjoy things as I once did, but I think that is to be Continue reading

Standards For Every Day

I was reading in the New Testament Book of Titus recently.  It was there that I read the blog_align_to_standardsqualifications for Elders found in Chapter one.  As an ordained Deacon and Elder, these verses are always humbling to me as I read them.

There are three offices noted in the New Testament for the local church: Pastor; Elder (also known as Bishop or overseer); and Deacon.  Additional qualifications can be found in 1 Timothy 3.  The Pastor’s responsibilities are to preach the Word, counsel, and provide direction for the congregation.  The Elder’s responsibilities are to set a Godly example, govern the congregation, protect the congregation, and teach the Word.  The Deacon’s responsibilities are to be a servant, to help meet the needs of the congregation.  They, too, are to be Godly examples. Continue reading

Following, Not Fighting – round one

boxing-ring-corner_300It was a few days before my fifty-fifth birthday; I was brushing my teeth, as I had done hundreds of time before, as I was preparing to go to work. I made a big smile to examine my work. It was then that I made the discovery.
I saw something white on the underside of my tongue on the left side. I pulled my tongue over and saw a white looking spot that was about three quarters of an inch by about one half of an inch. I showed it to Terrie and she said to leave it alone, but to be sure and show it to my dentist at my appointment the following Continue reading

Guarding My Heart

WHolding-heart-300x292hen I turned the corner unto my street, I pushed the button that opens my garage door.  As the door was opening, I saw a large wet yellow dog wondering loose on our street.  We don’t normally have loose dogs in our neighborhood, it’s against the rules.  I could only imagine the afternoon storm had caused my visitor to escape from his domicile.

I pulled my car into the garage and stepped to Continue reading