With Some Fear

I  have been off any form of chemo for over a year and I have a CT scan about every five months to make sure nothing resurfaces.  One small tumor resurfaced but did not change size, but then it went from 6 mm to 8 mm.  At that point, my doctor said if it continued to grow, he would ask Radiation to blast it with precision bombing.

 

The last CT scan showed it had indeed grown from 8 mm to 12 mm (less than 1/2″).  He told me they could take care of it with three to five session.  Continue reading

Surprised or Awed?

 

I don’t know which word describes how I feel.  Maybe it’s both.  When you pray for something and God answers that prayer with what you asked for, do you ever feel surprised?  Or are you in awe that He did it?

A week ago, we began another cycle of GriefShare  (www.griefshare.org) sessions at my church.  Interested people may pre-register online on our church website.  As of the eve of the first session, no one had pre-registered for the class.  That’s not too surprising because our society does not like to sign-up for things anymore.   I understand that, but it does make it difficult in knowing how to prepare materials, drinks, etc. for the class.

In the first session, I knew my facilitator would be absent due to a work conflict.  So, I went to the church wondering if I would be the only one there.  I was surprised when two young ladies walked in to join the class.  As I talked with them, it was apparent they were both hurting deeply and I was glad that my church has this ministry to help the hurting.

Last night was our second session.  I knew my facilitator would be joining me and a lady from the church said she would be there.  When they arrived, I was pleased to have them.  And then the two young ladies came and right behind them were two more people that was a complete surprise to me.  The last two drove about 25 miles one way to be there.

I was asked what was the minimum amount of folks required to have a class.  My answer was one, but even if no one signed up, we would be there each week to pray and to study and to be available if someone should walk in.

Is it a matter of faith or lack of faith?  Is it a matter of being available to be used by God?  Or is it an excitement to seeing Him in action?

“Jesus said to him, “If you can believe all things are possible to him who believes.”  Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!”  Mark 9:23-24 NKJV

 

Dare To Dream

There is a billboard on the interstate near downtown Oklahoma City that reads “Dare To Dream”.  Since I’m driving 60 miles an hour, that’s about all I can read.  It may have something to do with a home mortgage or something like that, but I’m not sure.

I have been thinking about those three words for a couple of days now and wondered if I dare to dream or has life killed that desire. Continue reading

Following, Not Fighting – round three

boxing-ring-corner_300I finally gave in to do what my doctor wanted me to do, I consented to have a colonoscopy.

He warned that I was long past the recommended age for having a colonoscopy done, which is 50 years old.  I was then 61.  So an appointment was made and I asked my friend to go with me, since Terrie could not leave her 6th grade class that she taught.

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Following, Not Fighting – round two

boxing-ring-corner_300The Lord had been gracious to me when I was diagnosed with oral cancer the first time.  I had the best oral cancer surgeons in America work on me by removing a portion of my tongue and rebuilding it with a skin graft in a way that I could still speak and eat and remain close to a normal existence.   I was told if I could go five years without getting cancer again, I would be considered healed.

I was so grateful to the Lord for He had shown Himself mightily Continue reading

Trust And Obey

broken-chairHave you ever sat in a chair and had it collapse?  I have and it’s not fun ending up setting on the floor!  My experience was with a fold out seat on a two wheel push-pull golf cart.  I was nineteen and weighed 170 pounds and I wanted to buy the cart for my future father-in-law.  So while in the store, I sat the cart on the floor, folded out the seat and sat down, only to have it drop like an out of control elevator.

Do you know what I learned from that life lesson?  To take a look and make a determination if the other chairs I want to sit in will hold me.  We have to make hundreds of determinations every day about things we place our trust in every day.   Will the truck that is passing me stay in his lane? Continue reading

Wings of the Morning

july_morning_sunbeams_by_jchandersI like to return to my favorite Psalm (139) when I am in need of comfort and guidance.  Such was the case, after my dear wife died in her sleep a year ago.  The morning of her funeral, I opened my old tattered bible to this Psalm to give me bravery, hope, and peace.  I have had this old friend for most of my Christian life; this friend with its stained, underlined verses could do that.  This old friend could comfort me in the loss of my oldest friend.

I began to read these verses, which seem to me to be very intimate  Continue reading

Following, Not Fighting – round one

boxing-ring-corner_300It was a few days before my fifty-fifth birthday; I was brushing my teeth, as I had done hundreds of time before, as I was preparing to go to work. I made a big smile to examine my work. It was then that I made the discovery.
I saw something white on the underside of my tongue on the left side. I pulled my tongue over and saw a white looking spot that was about three quarters of an inch by about one half of an inch. I showed it to Terrie and she said to leave it alone, but to be sure and show it to my dentist at my appointment the following Continue reading

Without Love

Today, it is certain that in the United States of America, we live in a divided country.  Ccymbals-300x300onservatives verses Liberals; Blacks verses Whites; Straights verses Gays–however you may want to divide it or whichever one you may put first , we are a divided nation.

There has always been divisions and frictions; you get that when you live in the same space with someone else, as in the family household.  But in the family household you are to make allowance for someone else.  You learned to adjust and to tolerate one another.  I don’t see that very much anymore in our society.  The Bible Continue reading