It’s been awhile since I last posted here. I needed time to process my emotions and where I was with the Lord and to try to get a better idea of where I was in the healing process.
The last post was on the 21st of May. I was looking with some anxiousness about two dates that were coming up quickly. Monday, the 23rd marked six months since Terrie died. Wednesday, the 25th marked what would have been our 42nd wedding anniversary. Those dates loomed like twin peaks on my horizon. I had to be able to get past those events and be able to emotionally survive.
In my GriefShare sessions, I was taught to lean into events like this, as one would lean into an ocean wave they knew was coming. I had a choice to make, I could either give no resistance and be knocked down by an emotional wave of missing her without hope or I could brace myself with anticipation and think on the blessing of having had her in my life for so much of my life. I choose Continue reading
1st Six Months Binder1
This will be the last post I will write for this month. With this post is a link to everything that I have posted on this blog since Terrie died. Continue reading
I may not understand them, but I marvel at the way God directs His creations. At His command, a school of fish or a flock of birds, turn in an instantaneous synchronized move
that boggles the mind; hundreds, if not thousands of His creatures, obeying a command from their Creator, in a moment.
I probably need to bring you up to speed as to what and how I am thinking.
Last Saturday, the weather was beautiful, especially after Continue reading
To the faithful reader, I think you would agree that I have faithfully and truthfully written of the emotions that I have experienced on my “highway of grief”. I have told you when I was hurting, angry, discouraged, and when I was given rest. All of these things, I chose to give thanks to the Lord, as it was and is part of my healing.
In my last post (Time Out In The Intertropical Convergence Zone), I was in the doldrums and without wind or hope. Since that writing, I have been trying to discern Continue reading
I think I’m going to legally change my name from Bruce Stephen Elkins to “Baby Steps” Elkins. I’m trying hard to be patient and in that, to wait upon the Lord and do what He wants me to, when He wants me to do it. Like babies learning to walk, sometimes they take a step and fall.
This last week, I asked the Lord about something and did not get an answer. I waited and still no answer. I took it to mean, step out Continue reading
On Wednesday, I hit an emotional brick wall! I may have just come out of shock! I had been feeling pretty good and thought I had been transitioning fairly well. I knew I was to have “alone time” with the Lord. Time to learn from Him and to follow the impressions that He has given in my mind and heart. I understood that and thought it was needed and beneficial.
Have you ever had unexpected company show up at dinner time? Or have had people stay around longer than you anticipated and you knew they would need to be fed? I think most people would say, “It’s time to go to the store and get more food!” Can you imagine what it would be like if you had fifty families do that? How about five THOUSAND? We would be in a panic…but Jesus wasn’t!
On a certain day, Continue reading
I liked the “old normal”. I was quite pleased with it and I wasn’t looking to change my status because I was very satisfied with the “old”. The “old normal” was being married to a woman I adored. We loved each other, enjoyed one another, and enjoyed our life together.
The “old normal” ended November 23, 2015 when Terrie died peacefully in her sleep. Continue reading
Her given name was Teresa Lee Baskin when she was born to Paul and Pat Baskin, October 18, 1949, in Shawnee, OK. Her family would call her Terrie.
Terrie was always curious and questioning. She demonstrated artistic abilities at an early age by using her crayons to color the living room walls.
She was always interested in lights and colors from the time she saw the colored fountain lights at OBU as a child. In recent months I took her to see the colored flashing lights of the Farris wheel at Frontier City. We sat on the side of the road for twenty minutes as she watched with delight the ever-changing patterns of the wheel, her eyes big and twinkling Continue reading
Jesus and his disciples were traveling to Galilee. They grew tired and stopped at Jacob’s well in the Samaritan town of Sychar to rest. His disciples left him to go into town to find food. While he was alone, a Samaritan woman came to the well to get water. He gave her “living water” so that she would not thirst again. She left her jar and went back to town to tell everyone about Jesus. As a result of her testimony the scriptures says that many from that town believed in Jesus.
So with that background, we pick up Continue reading